So this is like the fifth time I've read this chapter, and this bit just kills me ever single time: “I’m hurt that I wasn’t enough, and I’m so angry at you, for what you did, for letting him back in like that. But then I’m still so in love with you I can’t breathe. The thought of not being with you makes me feel sick. Why did you do this to me? Why couldn’t you just be happy with us?” I have tears streaming down my face from the heartbreak that is the Doctor in this chapter. Ouch.
I absolutely loved this bit of your commentary: It’s almost like he’s saying goodbye to her, even though he’s not really leaving her. It’s like they’re having a last moment together. That's exactly what it is; that was the end of how they used to be. There's a big line drawn through their history now, and it's never ever going to be the same again. I never understood why that moment where he touches her face seems so sad until I read this.
Also, have I told you lately how much I love these commentaries? Cos I do. Even if you made me cry. A lot. (And it's not even pretty crying, with the tears artfully sliding down my cheeks. I've got the runny nose, red eyes, sore throat crying going on here.) Are there any more of these, or is this the last one?
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Date: 2009-09-19 07:36 am (UTC)“I’m hurt that I wasn’t enough, and I’m so angry at you, for what you did, for letting him back in like that. But then I’m still so in love with you I can’t breathe. The thought of not being with you makes me feel sick. Why did you do this to me? Why couldn’t you just be happy with us?”
I have tears streaming down my face from the heartbreak that is the Doctor in this chapter. Ouch.
I absolutely loved this bit of your commentary:
It’s almost like he’s saying goodbye to her, even though he’s not really leaving her. It’s like they’re having a last moment together.
That's exactly what it is; that was the end of how they used to be. There's a big line drawn through their history now, and it's never ever going to be the same again. I never understood why that moment where he touches her face seems so sad until I read this.
Also, have I told you lately how much I love these commentaries? Cos I do. Even if you made me cry. A lot. (And it's not even pretty crying, with the tears artfully sliding down my cheeks. I've got the runny nose, red eyes, sore throat crying going on here.) Are there any more of these, or is this the last one?